Happy Birthday, Mom
This entry was posted on 7/29/2007 7:52 PM and is filed under uncategorized.
I miss you and I can't believe you are gone. I was supposed to make you something chocolate for your birthday or that banana split sundae cake you love so much. I had meant to plan something special, but I think we all felt that we needed to just try to not make it too hard - so we just made it a normal day. But, hopefully you know how much we think about you every moment.
Exciting things have been happening in my life. A new job, beautiful new home, nephew on the way, Sue and Scott moving to Washington... I feel so fortunate, yet it seems bittersweet when I can't share it with you.
I have your wedding diamond around my neck and close to my heart. It looks so beautiful in the new pendant - I know you would love it. Dad got a new truck. You wouldn't be able to help but smile if you saw him in it. It is so ridiculously tall, but it makes us smile so we can't complain. He gets this faraway look sometimes and we know it is when he is really missing you. So, if a big truck brings him joy - it makes us happy too.
Dad's taking good care of Mati. She has really bonded with him and she hangs out with him in the yard and the shop. She gets really dirty, but she doesn't mind. She just likes being with her Dad.
I really am doing OK and I remind myself that you are finally healthy again. I just get to feeling selfish and want you here. Its hard not having a Mom in the same way others do. But, I try to remind myself that you are still with me - just not in the same way. I have also taken advantage of other "Mom"s in my life that have really been supportive to me. I know you are smiling down when you see them loving me and giving me "Mom" advice.
You'll always be such a huge part of me. I miss you terribly, but feel fortunate I had you in my life for as long as I did. I love you very much.
Your daughter,
Courtney
